Sunday, May 30, 2010

The Song


I reminisce you singing my heart out to me
"I'm here without you baby".A song that I bear
The words memorized like a prayer for lord
The tune made of my blood and bones
The rhythm with which my heart throbs.
It's just a song but yet so close to my heart.

"All the miles that separtate"; is always our story.
And all we believe is that someday this will be history
"I am here without you baby", is always life's tragedy.
Great Lord, mend my craving, mend what's mandatory

"I have heard this life is overrated", a fact unchangable
It taxes us for being true to eachother and accountable
Time works in a strange manner, turns around all tables
Life looking up to a life which can be much stable

"Everything I know and anywhere I go", I will love you still
"When its all said and done.", I will stand by you still
All the ups and downs, all the hard times we can see
"It won't take away my love." I may fail, but we will win

Love thee

Loneliness is my friend for the moment
My failure is a tool of your entertainment
You must be glad with your self
Yet I don't know if you are better than I.

Soon if it's over and done
What will be our lives?
Soon when all your ego is gone
Will you be able to survive?

Memories of our smiles chase my peace
My face is what haunts me in my dreams
You must be happy with your self
Yet I still care if you are better than I.

Soon if inside of I dies
Whom will you live for?
Soon when your cold love rises
Whom will you call for?

Pages full of words and words full of truth
Your ignorance makes me scrible more and more
You must be blessed with your self
Yet I still know you are not better than I.

What I ask is nothing new
Just see through me
You are the one
Who consumes me
Forget your wound
And watch me wither!!!

Short story for heart that's broken

They say...

When a heart breaks
It never breaks in pieces
That is why when it breaks
It never becomes one piece

But the truth is...

Hearts never break in even
He leaves the home forever
She watches herself being abandoned
He's free and she's left to suffer

Sometimes....

A heart dies under burden of other
She won't say the truth and blames
He knows what she did at late hours
End of love here, start of pain there

And not only this...

Heartbreaking is now such a symmetry
In urge to find something new and wild
Nothing bothers them even in their sleep
Its a thought that just passes their mind

But Somehow...

It wants to resist another chance of pain
But a broken heart still beats and breaths
It just gets lost trying killing the pain
Cause it never wanted to be broken in the first place

Saturday, May 29, 2010

I keep waiting for a better tomorrow

Rumours of all the demons under my viens
Faith and peace all crumbling into pieces
Shadows of my own fingers on my skin
Blood of loneliness dripping with my tears

So when I am screaming at top of my voice
So when I am crying alone
So when I refrain myself from suicide
I keep waiting for a better tomorrow to come

Queen of the fools is what I call myself
As my heart is kept at the edge of a shelf
Prison of shame is where my body is held
Crucifix of my bones to hang me till death

So when I am calling for help
So when I am dying for a little air
So when I am sleeping with eyes wide open
I keep waiting for a better tomorrow to come

In all this turmoil I kill myself a little
While he who laughs closes all the exits
I snatched a piece of flesh from my sin
To show what it is like to love and live

So when I am walking bit faster
So when I am breathing a little harder
So when I say its all better
I keep waiting for a better tomorrow to come

Brutal Sweet Good Bye

When is it right to ask a question
to all the love you have known
Wnen is it right to end your confusion
And leave every apprehension alone.

We ride this roller coster of
Emotions as we try our lives
To make it through tough and rough
And yet, I can't deny my happiness

As I looked into your face
On days that have been bad
I see a look that beckons me
It's tired, hurt but its not sad

I have watched us in our good times
I see us in our bad ones now
After some bumps and little dips
I seem to lose everything somehow

The little spark that burnt inside
Behind those loving eyes.
Is growing old and ever clouded
By my ugly and cruel side

I try to see beyond what i see now
I try to talk beyond what we have
And softly you whisper to my self
This may get better yet.

For letting go is harder for
The person who is left behind
It means that if I let you go
I cannot turn back you and time

Back to the days that I long for,
When we were full of love and life
And every day held a new promise
And our futures, clear and bright

But now the sun is shining lesser
We take a daily toll now
I can't understand what's better
You still don't seem tp give up

I think the hardest part in this
Is never knowing why is this so?
I have to be courageous and quite
And say a sweet goodbye to you.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Street of South Delhi


Every one may know me
No one knows every thing about me
Most know less than what they think
As I am not the only confusion
As in life, there is much confusion
More than that is in love
And much more than that is in hatred

Example, he has grown foolish from a scholar
Who is confused about the shape of his career

Some one is writing a book on increasing poverty
Ah! as if he's an poor who can afford to publish

His mother encounters a man in the streets
She has not seen for twenty years

A dog following some one back home
People living on street without food

A girl is walking as if she sees nobody on the road
And she walks to catch glimpse of every road romeo

Some one is going to hide his crime
Some one must have already being ruined

She doesn't know how to answer her mother's question
He doesn't know the right answer to crucial question

Children leaving for schools, some not reaching there
Lovers or ex-lovers or would be lovers

Old people spending hours in the parks
Youths leaving for late dinner parties

Some one is about to suffer near death almost dying.
Some one is just avoiding,as if it is not really happening.

Everyone has forgotten something
Lost in imaginary pleasure of spring
Morals, god, humanity, Don't know what it is
As I am not the only confusion
As in life, there is much confusion
More than that is in love
And much more than that is in hatred

Friday, May 21, 2010

Rainy day, a diary and She


Lengthy paragraphs in the book can be warning or a fantasy
The thick and thin books and references of those in directory
One such thin book that I got my hands on has a little story
It narrates of a place in the city and woman who's just lonely
Slightly discolored that she has inherited from her mommy
Picture of a time when the rain fell for countless days
Staring out from a window is a blue under her tired eye
As a watermark on the paper for owner to claim the property
Stood out of these lengthy paragraphs was her despondency
The difficulty of maintaining balance and neutrality
The horror always dancing around in the carnival of city
Her hands tell her future, but nothing comes from her memory
She'd lived years before, but has nothing in her repository
Her tears dried on her cheeks, on her table an old diary
Some one speaking to her through the pages, likes of our colloquy
She was being told of a day which was not at all like today
Of a day when the sun smelled like sun flower and honey
Of times when she painted the clouds, waterfalls and valley
The valley was her birth place and always fed her fantasy
The fantasy that was living and merged in her reality
A love that flourished in the arms of her hubby
Days couldn't have been better and were always sunny
One day she saw a black cloud coming her way
She painted it and wrote about it in her diary
Rain was coming for the thirsty fields, she welcomed with joy.
How could have she known, it's not always a sign of ecstasy
She prayed, she painted, she played and she loved him always
She was fond of his eyes, his ears and loved him dearly
She smiled when he kissed her, she felt blessed eternally
A rainy day on her field was fun and they had a party
A day quickly became days and rainy day doesn't seem to go away
Valley was filled with water and the watermark kept soring absurdly
She was floating on a piece of her roof, looking for Gerry.
She had lost everything, her home, her paints, her diary
She had lost him in the water and it was her doomsday
She kept hold of that board and called his name constantly
Gerry didn't replied, but the clouds laughed at her brutally.
Doomsday ended and so a year, but she kept searching him insanely.
She found the debries, her paints and diary, but not her dear hubby.
She waited either for his well being or her own funeral cermony.
She went crazy but only spoke to her torn diary.
One day she climbs to the top of a mountain driven by her agony.
She jumps off the cliff and thinks that it is end of her story
No one knows how she was saved and brought to this sanctury.
No one knows why she remembers nothing and lost her memory
She came in blood and she cluched on to a diary.
They thought the diary might help to bring back her memory.
She had read it many times, but never remembers it entirely.
Nothing reminds her of this part of her story.
All she knows is that she hates the rain utterly.
She hates the water drops that fills the streets of city.
It makes her feel hollow and empty. Then she cries
No body tells her that what she reads is her own diary.
She just thinks the writer of diary must have been silly.
The writer speaks of the rain so highly.
And all she finds it dim, gloomy, nasty and deadly.